Mood:  hug me
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My head is just spinning round and round in circles today, I can't stop thinking about Will, wishing he was here, dreaming of what could be and what a mistake I've made. It's like I'm just beating myself up over this whole thing thinking I could be so much happier and be with prince charming, and my fairytale to actually come true. To be with someone who has a heart of gold and only a temper to those who hurt me not at me like Eric. I'm just so happy go lucky when he's not around, like in the morning on my way to school, I couldn't stop thinking about how much happier I would be if Will was around to love me and support me in the things I do full heartedly. Like for instance I want to get my Pilot's License after I finish my Associate's in Aviation Maintenance, and after that I want to get my ATC (Air Traffic Control), and when I told Eric thats what I wanted to do, he's like "I support you but you can't do ATC because they only hire and recruit retired military ATC'S for that and they are closing down all civilian ATC schools." and I just found out that they are recruiting more civilians for the job within the next 4-5 years without military experience and opening up more schools for civi's. I know all that because a girl in my maintenance class is a certified ATC just waiting to get stationed for a job. So I went back and told Eric the information I got and he said that she was a liar! Can you believe that?! Oh it just steams me so badly! Anyway, I came home today and Eric was like "I was gonna rape you when you walk in the door (in a joking manner) but I think I'll wait till I get home tonight." which is like 2am and I have to wake up at 6am and now because I'm pretty sure I'm back in Will's heart I don't really even feel comfortable with Eric touching me, but I can't say anything b/c i don't need Eric going off the wall angry for any reason at the moment, I'm trying to take it slow to get him out of the apartment so nothing too bad happens. Well I'm gonna go workout at curves for my 30min a day.
Bye!